The Reward

It was hard when my parents divorced. It was hard starting over. It was hard making friends, again. It was hard to truly be me. It was hard to say no. It was scary being pregnant. It was hard being a teenage mom. It was hard seeking and asking for help. It was hard becoming an adult. It was hard for me to trust to trust him…and him and him and to trust them. It was hard to establish healthy roots. It was hard for me to lose my home, again. It was hard for me to walk through a divorce. It was hard for me when my german shepherd died. It was hard for me to leave what was familiar, again. It was hard for me to forgive, again. It was both scary and hard for me to put my trust in Him. It was hard for me to His understand scriptures. It was hard for me to change churches. It was hard for me to stop dating. It was hard for me to make godly choices. It was hard for me to be completely vulnerable. It was hard for me to tithe. It was hard for me to walk by faith. It was hard for me to not be envious. It was hard for me to learn contentment. It was hard for me to stop judging. It was hard for me to change churches, again. It was hard for me to rest in His grace. It was hard for me to be still and listen. It was hard for me to walk in obedience. It was hard for me to stop working overtime. It was hard for me to retire. But it was not hard for me to believe that He loves me. It was not at all hard to believe that He gave His One and only Son for me. It was not hard to believe that all my sins are forgiven. It was not hard to believe that only His Blood makes me righteous. It is not at all hard to believe that He desires eternal life with me. And it will not be hard for me to embrace Him when I finally see His face. It will not be hard to depart from this earth when my appointed time comes.