Read this in today’s devotional: Consider setting aside some significant time to talk with God about your story. Ask the Holy Spirit to highlight parts of your story so you can invite the Trinity into those parts – to speak to your heart, to offer comfort, to point the way through.
Spirit, would You show me parts of my story where I have experienced loss, betrayal, grief, anxiety, diminishment, fear, pain?
I penned this: Poetry gives me a safe place. I don’t have to try to explain myself. I don’t have to pretend. I don’t have to fit in. I don’t have engage with others.
There are so many gaps from my childhood. My siblings have different memories than I, and I still have some longings and nostalgia in this season of my life.
I still see precious little children fill the sanctuary and wonder what was I like at that impressionable stage. I still look at teenage girls and feel a deep sadness for what I failed to receive at that age.
And yes, In my flesh, there are times when I see happily married couples and hold some regrets on how my marriage failed. Because in our ignorance we attempted to do life without God.
I love that my God has put a pen or pencil or keypad before me and I can freely express all of my emotions. I can do so at my discretion without fear of judgment or another’s opinion.
I can look back and with profound clarity see what was to come from that particular experience. I can with personal insight relate to others and sympathize. I can with each poem and each prose, release pieces of my story in hopes of being set free and helping just one lost soul.
As much as I love to write, I still sometimes shut down emotionally. But His Spirit and my Companion, is helping me to redeem. I can now embrace my past and every attached hurt, knowing that He holds me close. This God will rewrite my mistakes. As the Author, He knows the ending and it’s gonna be so good!
