Today is Tuesday
my heart beats calmly and
the day awaits me...
In the company of stillness...
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the fluffy white clouds are perfectly still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the birds on my fence are standing still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the sun to the west of me is hanging still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the leaves on the maple tree are holding still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
my rambling thoughts are becoming still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
my heavy breathing is becoming still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the beating of my heart is becoming still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
I am, if only for a moment, still
the fluffy white clouds are perfectly still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the birds on my fence are standing still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the sun to the west of me is hanging still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the leaves on the maple tree are holding still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
my rambling thoughts are becoming still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
my heavy breathing is becoming still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
the beating of my heart is becoming still
As I sit here alone by the windowsill
I am, if only for a moment, still
I am ready
When I was 17, he pretended not to notice me but I could always feel him watching me. That turned into an abusive relationship that resulted in a baby girl, 5lbs 6 ½ ounces… I wasn’t ready
When I was 22, he was the perfect gentleman. I kept asking myself, “When is this guy going to kiss me?” That turned into a fair skinned little boy with auburn hair and again, I wasn’t ready…
When I was 27, he came to almost every rehearsal. Imagine, little old shy me in a fashion show. That turned into my first real love; I thought I was ready…
When I was 33, he was my Knight in Shining Armor, or so I thought. That turned into “till death do us part.” Wow, marriage…are you every ready?
When I was 42, alone in my room; the tears were overflowing and HE whispered to me, “Don’t cry, its okay. I’m here for you.” Finally, I was getting ready.
Approaching 45, search no more, the wounds have healed, my heart is receptive and I am ready to love. I mean the give it all you’ve got, this is who I am, don’t try to change me, are you ready for this, kind of love?
Yes, I am ready!
When I was 22, he was the perfect gentleman. I kept asking myself, “When is this guy going to kiss me?” That turned into a fair skinned little boy with auburn hair and again, I wasn’t ready…
When I was 27, he came to almost every rehearsal. Imagine, little old shy me in a fashion show. That turned into my first real love; I thought I was ready…
When I was 33, he was my Knight in Shining Armor, or so I thought. That turned into “till death do us part.” Wow, marriage…are you every ready?
When I was 42, alone in my room; the tears were overflowing and HE whispered to me, “Don’t cry, its okay. I’m here for you.” Finally, I was getting ready.
Approaching 45, search no more, the wounds have healed, my heart is receptive and I am ready to love. I mean the give it all you’ve got, this is who I am, don’t try to change me, are you ready for this, kind of love?
Yes, I am ready!
Happy hour from 5-7pm
If I could go back
I would have eaten more vegetables
done my homework
cleaned my room
made more friends
cherished my virginity
been more outspoken
been more forgiving
spent more wisely
taken more risk
laughed out loud
danced more freely
declined the offer
to go out for drinks
and had one too many
then got behind the wheel
ran through the light
and sped out of control
which caused the collision
that struck a car
and killed their father
I would have eaten more vegetables
done my homework
cleaned my room
made more friends
cherished my virginity
been more outspoken
been more forgiving
spent more wisely
taken more risk
laughed out loud
danced more freely
declined the offer
to go out for drinks
and had one too many
then got behind the wheel
ran through the light
and sped out of control
which caused the collision
that struck a car
and killed their father
Serendipity
He took hold of my hand
and looked deep through my eyes
At the sound of his voice
I was completely mesmerized
Walking barefoot in the sand
while sharing our life stories
He would comment on the ocean
and all of God’s glory
As the sun began to set and
the evening was nearing its end
From the moment he looked through me
was when he had become, my best friend
and looked deep through my eyes
At the sound of his voice
I was completely mesmerized
Walking barefoot in the sand
while sharing our life stories
He would comment on the ocean
and all of God’s glory
As the sun began to set and
the evening was nearing its end
From the moment he looked through me
was when he had become, my best friend
He said, they all said...
You're beautiful, I love you
Trust me, I love you
I'm here for you, I love you
You're everything to me, I love you
Spend your life with me, I love you
We'll grow old together, I love you
I'm sorry, I love you
Good bye...
And Jesus said, "I'll never leave you."
Trust me, I love you
I'm here for you, I love you
You're everything to me, I love you
Spend your life with me, I love you
We'll grow old together, I love you
I'm sorry, I love you
Good bye...
And Jesus said, "I'll never leave you."
"If the timing had been different..."
I keep trying to convince myself that things would be different for the both of us. I would not be married and he would not be recently divorced. Whose to say that he and I would even be a couple? All I know is that if we’d had this chance years ago, things may have turned out differently.
I can actually picture us being happy, comfortable and content. Not letting the outside world get to us, not letting the stresses of the job put up walls in our family life and being one of those couples that people actually envy. Our kids would constantly tease us for always showing affection in public and their friends would always want to spend time at our house. They’d said, “Your parents are so cool.”
We would take family vacations twice a year and then there would be occasions when we would have “grown up time.” The kids would be gone for the summer and we would live freely like two teenagers without a care in the world. We would make love every day and sometimes twice a day. We would forget to eat and clean up and just lay back, laugh and play hooky from work.
But then reality sets in and I open my eyes to see that if the timing had been different, maybe he would have bumped into me; said, " excuse me" and kept right on walking.
I can actually picture us being happy, comfortable and content. Not letting the outside world get to us, not letting the stresses of the job put up walls in our family life and being one of those couples that people actually envy. Our kids would constantly tease us for always showing affection in public and their friends would always want to spend time at our house. They’d said, “Your parents are so cool.”
We would take family vacations twice a year and then there would be occasions when we would have “grown up time.” The kids would be gone for the summer and we would live freely like two teenagers without a care in the world. We would make love every day and sometimes twice a day. We would forget to eat and clean up and just lay back, laugh and play hooky from work.
But then reality sets in and I open my eyes to see that if the timing had been different, maybe he would have bumped into me; said, " excuse me" and kept right on walking.
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